My heavy feet
Trod over your
Fragile form.
The satisfying crunch
That rings out from beneath my heels
Is the sound of your final protest
From your decaying self.
11
Oct
2017
10
Oct
2017
Mindful Musings #227
Lying awake
Too dark to see the ceiling.
Thoughts swirling in my mind
While my eyes see nothing.
I can’t focus
On anything
To save my life.
There is no respite
For the wicked.
I will sleep
When I am
Dead.
02
Oct
2017
Mindful Musings #226
The jealousy I feel
When I see you in various stages of
Undress
Burns within my chest.
Your accessories long tossed away
As you change from gold, to red, to muddy brown.
Discarding your leaves you lay yourself bare.
Exposed to the gentle breeze
That is laced with ice
As if to foretell
What is to come.
27
Sep
2017
Mindful Musings #225
If scars can tell stories
Lord
My body is covered with an adventure
Of epic proportions.
26
Sep
2017
Gimme Your Opinion!
Hello lovely peeps and readers of my blog!
I want your opinion on something.
I’m considering publishing a book of my Mindful Musings and I want to know which ones you like the best!
There are over 200 posts! That’s a lot to go through.
Lemme know in the comments which musings really did it for you. Just gimme the number and we’ll be solid.
10 points to whoever answers me! đŸ˜€
Thanks!
25
Sep
2017
Mindful Musings #224
Every good actress knows
You don’t cry once the makeup is on.
You don’t break character no matter how much it hurts.
Smile through the pain
And swallow your tears.
For this stage is vast and grand.
No one must know
That you are merely the understudy
In your own life.
22
Sep
2017
Mindful Musings #223
It’s overwhelming.
The urge to put on the mask;
To dance to the fake song
That screams in my mind.
The desire to wriggle
Out of my very skin
And dress up as another being.
Fake smiles to go around
And artificial happiness for days.
15
Sep
2017
1-800-273-8255 ft. Alessia Cara, Khalid by Logic
Please visit Suicide Prevention Canada if you need support.
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
Who can relate?
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
I don’t wanna be alive
I don’t wanna be alive
I just wanna die today
I just wanna die
I don’t wanna be alive
I don’t wanna be alive
I just wanna die
And let me tell you why
All this other shit I’m talkin’ ’bout they think they know it
I’ve been praying for somebody to save me, no one’s heroic
And my life don’t even matter
I know it I know it I know I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it
I never had a place to call my own
I never had a home
Ain’t nobody callin’ my phone
Where you been? Where you at? What’s on your mind?
They say every life precious but nobody care about mine
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
Who can relate?
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don’t gotta die today
You don’t gotta die
I want you to be alive
I want you to be alive
You don’t gotta die
Now lemme tell you why
[Alessia Cara:]
It’s the very first breath
When your head’s been drowning underwater
And it’s the lightness in the air
When you’re there
Chest to chest with a lover
It’s holding on, though the road’s long
And seeing light in the darkest things
And when you stare at your reflection
Finally knowing who it is
I know that you’ll thank God you did
[Logic:]
I know where you been, where you are, where you goin’
I know you’re the reason I believe in life
What’s the day without a little night?
I’m just tryna shed a little light
It can be hard
It can be so hard
But you gotta live right now
You got everything to give right now
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
Who can relate?
I’ve been on the low
I been taking my time
I feel like I’m out of my mind
It feel like my life ain’t mine
I finally wanna be alive
I finally wanna be alive
I don’t wanna die today
I don’t wanna die
I finally wanna be alive
I finally wanna be alive
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die
[Khalid:]
Pain don’t hurt the same, I know
The lane I travel feels alone
But I’m moving ’til my legs give out
And I see my tears melt in the snow
But I don’t wanna cry
I don’t wanna cry anymore
I wanna feel alive
I don’t even wanna die anymore
Oh I don’t wanna
I don’t wanna
I don’t even wanna die anymore
21
Aug
2017
Thoughts on ’13 Reasons Why’
Like many, I had a hard time watching this show. I had a hard time not only because of the events that took place, but because of the events that I recalled from my own life while watching. At first, I had watched the initial episode and felt that I wouldn’t continue. Just that first episode was enough to rattle me. I spoke with a coworker who had watched the whole series and asked if he felt it was worth it to watch the whole thing, or if I would get the same effect after reading spoilers. So I read some spoilers (I read a brief breakdown of each episode) and I talked to the #BSP about it, and I determined that I should watch the whole thing. There are some things that can’t be conveyed through reading: you need to watch it to get the full impact. Not everyone can handle the full impact of this show and they shouldn’t try to handle it. I’m going to write down my thoughts on this show so if you don’t want to read spoilers then I suggest you stop now. But if you don’t mind spoilers or if you’re like me and want to read a bit before watching it anyway, continue on.
17
Aug
2017
Mindful Musings #222
Slowly
As the sun creeps across the sky
And the moon hangs in an empty darkness
I am reminded of the fractures
In my mortality.
