Mindful Musings #34

Mindful Musings

I don’t want to be afraid any more.

I’ve spent my whole life living in fear of you.

Of what you say.

Of what you don’t say.

I fear your existence and how it wraps with mine.

I fear your voice that seems to follow me everywhere.

I don’t want to be afraid any more.

I don’t want to hold on;

Hoping for something that will never be.

It will never be.

We will never be.

Our relationship no longer holds power.

You hold no power.

I’m letting go now.

I hate you

But I forgive you.

I’m sorry you couldn’t love me.

I’m sorry you won’t know who I have become.

I’m sorry you bore me

Some thirty-two years ago.

I don’t want to be afraid any more.

So I won’t.

Posted by Sarah Jayne

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