Returning So Soon…?

It’s kind of my lunch break right now at work so I wanted to write a proper post.

I’ve been asked before why I write. I have been writing since I was in my early teens for a lot of reasons. Sure, the stuff I wrote then wasn’t amazing, but it was good enough. Even now, I am my own worst critic and I have issues taking constructive criticism. I try to get edits done by people I don’t know personally  because then any criticism can be taken better.

Since I started my new job and my husband has been gearing up for his inevitable return to school, I found myself wondering what I would do. I am surrounded by extremely skilled and intelligent people at my new workplace and I’m finding it a bit hard to maintain my self-confidence. Without having time to write I am feeling more and more bogged down by all my “can’ts”. Rational brain realizes that this will pass and it’s just a matter of getting comfortable with my co-workers and identifying my place within this organization. My irrational brain does not realize this and consistently drags me down.

However, the sadder I get the stronger the creative juices flow and I am reminded of why I started writing in the first place.

I didn’t have the best childhood and I’ve beaten that topic to death. But I started writing as some form of self-therapy. I spent a lot of time when I was younger in a depressed state and it was then that I wrote, what I consider, some of my best. It’s as if I need that conflict to create and I don’t like that. I am in a great place and I want to continue writing TAK but I’m having so many issues just getting to it that it’s driving me crazy. My laptop is toast. My tablet is alright but the Bluetooth keyboard is less than responsive. The word-processing program on my tablet is also less than desirable. I want a new tablet and now I am just waiting for the funds because apparently I can’t have cheap taste lol.

Keep your eyes peeled because I will be reducing my book, Black & Red, to FREE in the coming weeks. It’s time. It’s been out for 2 years already.

Until then, brace for the coming Fall, best season ever!

Posted by Sarah Jayne

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