It's Not Me, It's You

Bye

I am the worst when it comes to self care. I forget about looking after my own mental health more often than not. There’s no good reason for it, other than to say that it wasn’t something I grew up witnessing. Being the eldest in a single parent household I watched my mother work herself to the bone, sometimes doing two jobs at once. In my final year of high school I worked three jobs and went to school full time. I’m even currently looking at getting a part time job so that my husband doesn’t have to work while he’s in his final year of his program.

I know I need to do better. The house can look after itself for the ten minutes it would take for me to do some lead meditation or just read a book by myself.

I downloaded the Headspace app and am encouraging a friend to do it as well. While I can’t afford to subscribe, we can still support each other and inspire each other to do the free sessions.

In the meantime, I recently deleted my Facebook account.

I’ve been on Facebook since it came out; way back when it was supposed to be used as a tool to find out who was in your classes so that you can make friends.

Why did I make this change?

I had been finding that Facebook was increasing my anxiety. I had 40 friends and I was cutting back all the time. I just found that I was obsessively checking it, borderline stalking people and then getting upset over things I was seeing.

And getting jealous.

For no reason.

As well, Facebook was just another way for people to contact me, even when I didn’t want them to. Despite having a public blog and writing on it daily there are times when I want to be able to disconnect from all the crap and just chill on my own. I was tired of the pieces of information that were not essential to my life.

While I have faced harassment through this blog I found that even more harassment was happening through my author page on Facebook. People were getting contacted and being told incorrect information in order to slander my reputation.

So now it’s done.

I’ve still got Twitter and I have this site. I still have a work-related email address that I can filter easily.

Honestly, I feel so much better now that I’ve shut Facebook down. The compulsion to sign in and look at things that don’t matter is basically gone. I sent a message to the people who matter and gave them an email address if they wanted to keep in touch. The people I didn’t message were because I already have ways to connect with them outside of Facebook.

It’s a pretty sweet feeling of release and I’ve spent a whole weekend not even worrying about it.

Yeah. This feels good!

Bye FB

 

Posted by Sarah Jayne

1 comment

Fortune’s Expensive Smile

I have been contemplating doing this very thing.I was thinking of this yesterday. It’s scary just how much Facebook controls us. I think you’ve inspired me to do the same.

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