One Step Forward

It’s been pretty rough in my neck of the woods lately. Money issues have been the biggest bane of my existence but it seems these problems are getting organized now.

Things they don’t tell you about having a family: it’s goddamn expensive. Oh, that’s common knowledge? Is it really? I can’t say I was expecting to be paying over $1000 a month for someone to look after my children so that I could work. I can’t say I was expecting diapers to cost almost $40 a box with wipes not that far behind. I can’t say I was expecting my kids to go through phases where all they want to eat is cereal or yogurt. Did you know that the individual yogurts that are aimed at kids are almost $4 for 6 of them? I’ve tried buying the big tubs of flavoured yogurt to save some bucks since they eat it so much but the eldest freaks out over the bits of fruit in his.

*SIGH*

This is my life and these are my kids. I am complaining, but there’s not much that can be done right now. We’re currently a majorly single-family income since my husband is in school full time. The youngest needs full time care and the eldest will be in grade 1 in 8 months so the costs for his care will lessen. There’s a lot of pressure put on families. All kinds of families. Sometimes it can be unbearable but we soldier through.

The sleepless nights because you worry something is wrong with your kids or where the grocery money is going to come from.

But as I said, things are getting better. Yesterday my dayhome was closed because my poor dayhome provider was sick. We’ve been with her for almost a year and this is the first time she’s taken a sick day. She clearly needed it. So I tried to enjoy some time with my littlest guy while trying to do some work. The work thing didn’t work out so well and then he decided he wanted nothing to do with me. I hate this phase. I’m the kind of mum that wants the hugs and the cuddles forever.

The days go by and I can only take them one step at a time. It is not good to run, especially when you don’t know the terrain. I don’t want to fall on my face. I do that enough as it is.

In reducing costs I’m going to stop going to kickboxing. With my husbands work schedule I’m paying for classes and I’m not able to attend. I’m considering purchasing a 10 class pass once that money comes in since I got brand new gloves that I love for Christmas. I will still use them, even if I just do it on my own at home. I could get a heavy bag and do my own classes. It’s still a work out. I know what I’m doing now so that helps.

Once the money comes in I need to go to yoga. Since it’s going to cost a bit extra than the gift I was given for this particular studio I’ve been waiting for the moolah before I attend a class.

I’ve also been looking into the different volunteering options for when I am ready/able to get back into that.

But like I said, one step at a time.

In the meantime, I’ll enjoy being serenaded by my husbands horrible rendition of “Bad Blood” (which, in my opinion, is a terrible song anyway)

Posted by Sarah Jayne

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