Slowly
As the sun creeps across the sky
And the moon hangs in an empty darkness
I am reminded of the fractures
In my mortality.
17
Aug
2017
am writing
16
Aug
2017
Mindful Musings #221
There is a line.
A barrier.
The ‘we’ who exist on this side of the line
Does not translate to the ‘we’ who exist on the other side.
Pleasantries exchanged
Lead to strange indifference
Beyond the barrier.
The box.
Within
We exist as a whole new set of human beings
With different relationships to others
And to each other.
No matter the one-sided effort
These relationships cannot exist
Beyond a sliver of illusion
On the other side of that line.
That barrier.
05
Jun
2017
Mindful Musings #220
She looks out the window
At the world as it passes by.
She extends her hand
But she cannot reach the life beyond her fingertips.
She is drowning.
She is being buried alive.
She is losing herself to the whirl of her reality.
She must continue to give all of herself
While retaining only a little of herself.
Take that fragment
Hold it close.
Cup that ember
In the palm of outstretched hands.
Softly, carefully, protect that ember
From the buffeting waves of life.
When the storm dies down
And the agony abates
Feed that ember
Until it bursts into the flame of who
She used to be.
10
May
2017
Mindful Musings #219
One thing after another
As I spew profanities under my breath
Or at least I think it’s under my breath.
A spill here.
A scream there.
Today, I just fucking quit at life.
Where’s the goddamn reset button?
25
Apr
2017
Mindful Musings #218
Feeling trapped.
Fingers numb from clawing
Lungs burning from lack of oxygen.
All within a prison made of glass.
Now the water rises.
Slowly, carefully
Swallowing from the bottom up.
Trembling from fear
Gives way to sweet defeat.
Exhaustion envelops like a blanket.
Soothing the pain.
Covering the wounds.
Darkness descends
And there is only black.
04
Apr
2017
Mindful Musings #217
I see you dancing
On the edge of the snow.
I see your sparkle
In the morning frost.
You’re growing stronger
Day by day.
The spring sunlight is beginning to shine
Upon our poor frozen
Tortured
Souls.
03
Apr
2017
Mindful Musings #216
I’ve got a mind.
There’s always somethin’ on it.
A smart-ass retort
A lingering pain.
Grievances I’ll keep to myself.
Bite my tongue, though I might bleed.
I’ve got a mind.
There’s always somethin’ on it.
24
Mar
2017
Mindful Musings #215
It’s that dangerous time of year
When the ice thaws
And the snow melts.
What dangers lurk beneath the not-so-pristine blanket
That has covered us for 6 long months?
Careful, careful
Look where you step.
Beware the warmer temperatures
That taunt you on the forecast.
Half of them might be lies
Or wishful thinking.
Here in the Great White North
Mother Nature teases us with sunshine
Framed in by blizzards.
Think twice before you leave your house.
Bring a scarf, toque and gloves
Just in case.
10
Mar
2017
Mindful Musings #214
She hides the pain
Behind the smiles in her eyes.
She covers herself in beauty
To hide the ugliness inside.
Covered up in colours
That wash away the darkness.
Breathing slowly
Softly
Deeply
Until the agony resets
And she can dance through the night
Guided only by the stars.
16
Feb
2017
Mindful Musings #213
It stands before me:
Daunting
An insurmountable thing.
Fear curls its icy tendrils
Around my heart
As the panic sets in.
Deep breaths, now.
In
Out.
Four times for good measure.
Eyes open, surveying the obstacle before me.
Deep breaths, now.
In
Out.
Four times for good measure.
Dig deep down inside.
Grab that perseverance.
Grab it tighter than the fear grips you.
And begin to climb.
