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Mindful Musings #221

There is a line.

A barrier.

The ‘we’ who exist on this side of the line

Does not translate to the ‘we’ who exist on the other side.

Pleasantries exchanged

Lead to strange indifference

Beyond the barrier.

The box.

Within

We exist as a whole new set of human beings

With different relationships to others

And to each other.

No matter the one-sided effort

These relationships cannot exist

Beyond a sliver of illusion

On the other side of that line.

That barrier.

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Mindful Musings #220

She looks out the window

At the world as it passes by.

She extends her hand

But she cannot reach the life beyond her fingertips.

She is drowning.

She is being buried alive.

She is losing herself to the whirl of her reality.

She must continue to give all of herself

While retaining only a little of herself.

Take that fragment

Hold it close.

Cup that ember

In the palm of outstretched hands.

Softly, carefully, protect that ember

From the buffeting waves of life.

When the storm dies down

And the agony abates

Feed that ember

Until it bursts into the flame of who

She used to be.

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Mindful Musings #218

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Feeling trapped.

Fingers numb from clawing

Lungs burning from lack of oxygen.

All within a prison made of glass.

Now the water rises.

Slowly, carefully

Swallowing from the bottom up.

Trembling from fear

Gives way to sweet defeat.

Exhaustion envelops like a blanket.

Soothing the pain.

Covering the wounds.

Darkness descends

And there is only black.

 

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Mindful Musings #215

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It’s that dangerous time of year

When the ice thaws

And the snow melts.

What dangers lurk beneath the not-so-pristine blanket

That has covered us for 6 long months?

Careful, careful

Look where you step.

Beware the warmer temperatures

That taunt you on the forecast.

Half of them might be lies

Or wishful thinking.

Here in the Great White North

Mother Nature teases us with sunshine

Framed in by blizzards.

Think twice before you leave your house.

Bring a scarf, toque and gloves

Just in case. 

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Mindful Musings #214

She hides the pain

Behind the smiles in her eyes.

She covers herself in beauty

To hide the ugliness inside.

Covered up in colours

That wash away the darkness.

Breathing slowly

Softly

Deeply

Until the agony resets

And she can dance through the night

Guided only by the stars.

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Mindful Musings #213

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It stands before me:

Daunting

An insurmountable thing.

Fear curls its icy tendrils

Around my heart

As the panic sets in.

Deep breaths, now.

In

Out.

Four times for good measure.

Eyes open, surveying the obstacle before me.

Deep breaths, now.

In

Out.

Four times for good measure.

Dig deep down inside.

Grab that perseverance.

Grab it tighter than the fear grips you.

And begin to climb.

 

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