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The Spring is a Lie

It’s been a while since I dropped a line here. It’s a balmy -5 (Feels like -12) here in Manitoba. My poor kid keeps asking when spring is going to get here. There’s snow on the ground and ice everywhere. For someone from southern rural Ontario, these temperatures at this time of year are not fun. Here’s a super condensed version of what the hell I’ve been up to in the last few months:

Shit I’ve Done

There have been some changes in personnel at work with people leaving for other opportunities or retirement. The team of 9 when I started is now a team of 5. I’m adapting to the changes, but it doesn’t mean I like them.

I’ve sold my house in the town I live in and have bought a bigger house in a smaller town further away from where I am now. I can work from home, so my job is not in jeopardy. This smaller town should allow my family to slow down and take a breath. It’s been almost a year since my husband went to live and work in a city 2.5 hours away. There have been some struggles on my end but we’re all surviving.

I’m listening to the All-Out 90s playlist on Spotify and I still know all the words to all these songs. The 90s was just last week anyway, right?

I had a coffee date last night with a former coworker/current friend for the first time in a while. I always appreciate when he makes time to hang out with me. I miss working with this guy and I’m jealous of his success, but I also support him 100% and will fight anyone who tries to bring him down. Because I’m a ninja and you don’t mess with my friends.

I’m scattered and all over the place but that’s just how I am. There’s not much I can, or want, to do about it.

Shit I Plan to Do

With the end of classes means I have more time on my hands. More time to write, I hope. I’ve been playing around with Pressbooks and have uploaded some short stories from TAK on there. Considering using Pressbooks as my platform for TAK as a whole when I’m ready. Still undecided on that at the moment.

After we move, I want to buy a free standing heavy bag so I can get back to kickboxing. I will be the cool kid who kickboxes in her basement to old DVDs. I need to get back in shape (I’ve been saying this for….10 years now?) and I think this is the best way I’ll be able to.

I have a house to pack. I’ve packed around 11 boxes so far and they’re only books and I still have 2 bookshelves to pack.

Next Friday I take the final exam of my undergraduate career. It’s a scary moment because after this it’s time to apply for the Master’s program I’ve been working towards for the last 3 years. It’s scary because it’s the end of an era: a way of life. It’s scary because there is no guarantee I’ll even get into the program. It’s also scary because damn: what do I do from here?

I have a tattoo appointment because tattoos are life.

The Joy and the Madness

I’ll probably be more active on here again since I’ve found myself with the time. I’ve been pretty active on Twitter in the last little bit. Tweeting about mental health and being a lovable idiot when it suits me.

I also dyed my hair. Because I’m fun like that.

Aw. Aren’t I just precious?

I’ve also remembered that I fit into t-shirts made for children. Specifically, I can wear an XL (or size 14) in boys. This means I get to wear sweet-ass shirts like this for $8 and no tax:

I am going to buy more because they are amazing.

And thus ends the randomness of my day. I’ll be back to posting musings and perhaps more about my book.

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Freshening Up

So, it’s officially Spring in my neck of the woods. Or at least, that’s what the calendar tells me. The snow has all but melted, though they’re calling for more today. Goooooo CANADA!

On a happy note, I’ve given this chandelier in my dining area a bit of a face-lift. It wasn’t broken or anything, it functions quite well.

However.

When you move into a  home that is supposed to be yours, you want to give it your personal touch. My husband purchased paint for the office and kitchen/dining area this weekend. Tonight he’s going to purchase the paint for the living room. This will allow us to put our serious touch on this place.

While he was working this weekend I asked him to pick up some shades I had seen online that his store sells. This is the result:

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Just a tiny face lift. Just a tiny piece that we’ve been able to change and it’s rejuvenated that chandelier. I am not a floral person by any means so the previous look was actually killing me inside. I could feel tiny bits of me dying on a regular basis.

You’ll be happy to know that the office area should be complete by April 24th. We’re going to head into the big city to pick up the sofa bed for the office. The plan is to paint it this long weekend while we don’t have loads of furniture to move around. I’m actually quite stoked, to be honest.

I’ll post some pictures of the lovely space when it’s all done!

Happy Monday! Keep yourselves awake!

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New Beginnings

On the 24th of August a whole bunch of new beginnings are happening in my family.

My eldest son is getting ready for kindergarten this September and to help him adjust he’ll be starting at the before/after care place that is right beside the school on the 24th. He is a pretty shy boy when he is in a crowd of people he doesn’t know, so I wanted to make sure he was going to be able to take his time to adjust to the new surroundings. They will walk him to and from school so he won’t get lost or be too scared. The freedom progresses as he gets older but it’s great for now.

As well, I’ll be starting a new job. I had some interviews last week and I was offered a very nice 2 year contract at a higher wage than what I am at right now. The benefits seem pretty good and even if it doesn’t get extended for some reason past the 2 years my husband will be done his College course by then and hopefully working.

This is awesome because it allows me to relax a little bit and not be so paranoid about how we’re going to pay for things while he’s in school. It will also (hopefully) give me more time to work on TAK and get that out to the readers who are anxiously waiting. Well, maybe it’s only one reader but that reader is still important!

I haven’t had much time to write any more shorts for TAK but that is something I’d like to do too. I was thinking of writing one about Brexton and Aldric when they were growing up in the camp. I have another character I’d like to write about too but it might spoil some things for the main story so I might just write it but not release it until the book is finished.

I caught up on rereading where I had left off and the ideas are flowing! It’s just a matter of getting back into the swing of things. Hopefully it all works out the way I’d like it to!

Think good thoughts for me, okay? 🙂

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Tick-Tock

Today is the last day that I get to spend with my son, just the two of us. On Wednesday I go into the hospital to have my second baby. Tomorrow we take our son to Nana and Grampy’s so that he can get settled and Mum and Dad can go to our Pre-Op appointment as we are having a scheduled c-section for this second little monster.

Right now I’m filled with so many mixed emotions I don’t know how I’m going to sleep the next two nights. I would be spending all my time with my son right now but he’s more concerned with fighting Vader in Angry Birds to want to play with me. So I thought I’d do my ‘final’ post for a while since he’s preoccupied.

I just keep worrying about having enough time for both kids. Most of the time I feel like I don’t have enough time for just my son. But I’ll be going back to work and hopefully doing some school so that means my time will be reduced again. I’m hoping to start in 2014 and only doing school 3 days a week on the days when my son is in Pre-Kindergarten anyway and then working in the evening. The year after that, if I get into the B.Ed program, I’ll be going to school full time, but so will my son. My baby will be old enough to attend the child care on campus so that will be fine. And really, it’ll be like when I first had my son and went back to work. I worked full time Monday-Friday so it’s not like one child will have had more time with me than the other.

I’m trying to keep in mind how to balance everything. Especially if I have another boy. While I REALLY REALLY want another boy, I’m worried about treating them differently, preferring one over the other, or just straight up treating them so differently it’s noticeable. And I mean favouring one over the other when I talk about treating them differently. Of course they will be treated differently as they will be different people.

But then if I have a girl, my son can go on being my special little man. However, that brings up a whole host of other concerns and worries that I don’t even know what I’m going to do about it.

Let’s not even START talking about the ACTUAL birth of the child, which is via cesarean section, which is considered MAJOR surgery. Plus, I’m getting my tubes obliterated in the process so even though I’ve had a c-section before, this one will be different and therefore my recovery will be different.

Will I be able to spend time with both kids right away? Will my son be able to adjust to the arrival of the new baby? He’s only 3.5 years old so while I THINK he kind of gets what’s going on, I don’t think he understands 100%. I’m worried he won’t know what to do with me when I am sitting in bed and not moving because I’ve just gotten my stitches removed or something. I’m worried he will start acting out in a way that we can’t control.

Oh, and did I mention Christmas is coming? And our income is reduced. Good thing I’m done shopping for my family for the most part 😛

Ugh.

Well, my boy needs help annihilating some Storm Trooper piggies on Hoth so I should stop.

Hopefully I can stop thinking about all this crap and just relax before baby gets here and takes away all my energy 🙂

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Surviving the 'Stay-at-home' Mum stint

Right now, the biggest challenge I am facing is NOT which character to kill off or how to transition from this scene to that scene. It’s not even figuring out how to show the subtle, yet amazing, emotional transformation of the main character.

No no. Right now my biggest challenge is being a Stay-at-home Mum.

Since the age of 14 I have worked. There have been times where I have worked 3 jobs while attending school full time. I think in University was the first time I went more than a month without working because I needed to focus on my studies.

After the Boy was born I was off work for 9 months as my husband and I shared parental leave. Then I was right back at it, working full time and many times being a single mum while my husband was gone for work.

We’ve now moved to a small town and being as pregnant as I am it doesn’t make sense to work when I’ll just be going on maternity leave in about 3 months now. Actually, I think it’s a bit less than that.

The first two weeks seemed easy. Now, as time drags on, I realize how isolated I am and how I have 0 adult interaction when my husband is gone. I’m hoping to change this with some play groups that are starting in the Fall, but for now, it’s such a weird and bizarre feeling.

Good news is my husband is going to construct our fence this weekend and assemble the trampoline we purchased for our son. This will allow us to at least be outside during the day. Right now it’s hard to go to the park because I can’t chase my son or carry him when it’s time to leave (and he NEVER wants to go home).

For now, the Boy and I will amuse ourselves with Legos, some Bugs Bunny shorts, and maybe some documentaries about the ocean narrated by David Attenborough. The Boy has recently expressed huge interest in the aquatic.

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