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Mindful Musings #226

 

The jealousy I feel

When I see you in various stages of

Undress

Burns within my chest.

Your accessories long tossed away

As you change from gold, to red, to muddy brown.

Discarding your leaves you lay yourself bare.

Exposed to the gentle breeze

That is laced with ice

As if to foretell

What is to come.

 

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Mindful Musings #211

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Can you breathe?

The icy air constricts your lungs.

Every breath is raw.

Can you breathe?

Nostrils freeze closed only to be forced open by oxygen.

Cheeks flush red as the wind whips harshly across them.

Can you breathe?

This frozen winter air begets a winter wonderland

As the season stretches on and on.

Can you breathe?

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My House; New Life

Still working on my office. The plan is on April 23rd to go to Ikea to pick up the sofa bed I wanted. I’m a bit conflicted because the colour I wanted is out of stock but we’ll see when we get there. We have a backup in mind in case this one doesn’t fit the bill. I won’t be the one sleeping on it, after all. Need to make sure it’s comfortable for my guests. Not that we get many guests, but when we do, it needs to be perfect.

I’ve got mental images on how I want the rest of the room to look and we’ve ordered bookshelves to finish it off. Considering hemming the blackout curtains that are currently in the room but I’m not sure if I want to yet. They’re so big and heavy!

Once the room is done, furniture wise, it’ll be time to finish it off with the right accents and accessories. I want to go for a zen/buddha/chill kind of theme and I’ve seen a few pieces I might like to put in there. It really all depends on which sofabed we get. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get side tables. I’ve been keeping my eyes on the classified in my area in case I see something I could repurpose.

I’m also hoping to get a few planters to grow some veggies in my back yard; cut down on the grocery bill and get the kids to help out. This will also be a good reason to get outside more often with the kids because I’ll  have something to do!

We recently bought a new patio set for the back yard that just needs to be put together.

AND! Because I am the coolest mum ever, I bought concert tickets to take my (soon-to-be) 6-year-old to see Weird Al! My kid loves his songs and even if we just stay for half an hour I think it will be worth it! I’ve already got the time off work and I’m trying to convince my husband to come out as well with our other son. The concert takes place in another city so I’ll have to drive out and most likely stay overnight. Even if my husband doesn’t come I think it will be good bonding for me and my older one. We don’t get to spend a lot of time together, just the two of us. Each kid needs special time with their parents. I also want to get a nice tent and go camping in the backyard when then weather gets nice. My husband wants to get a new fire pit too so it will be great!

All these plans, so little time. It really hinges on what job my husband is doing for work. Hopefully he gets one of the full-time jobs he applied for.

In other news, I’m continuing to write and edit TAK. I hate editing lol I’ve been adding a bit and detracting things that don’t matter. I realized I’m not very descriptive of the scenery when I write, but for what I’ve read so far I’m not sure if that’s an issue or not. I’ll see how I feel when I do the next edit.

Enjoy your Tuesday! I’m a bit sick so I’m trying not to breathe on people. Keeping my germs to myself.

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The Signs of Aging

Oh man. Let’s just say I’ve been feeling my age lately. It’s not even like I’m that old; I’m turning 33 this year. That’s not old at all. But hot damn do I feel old.

I was knocked flat on my ass yesterday by a cold. A COLD. I used to laugh at those and hop myself up on Halls, DayQuil and whatever other manner of medication I could find. Maybe some Advil Cold and Sinus. Those little pills are usually the relief bringers for me.

But nooooo. Not yesterday. I had a sore throat on Tuesday so I left work early. I figured I’d work from home for a bit and then when my coworker returned from his lunch I’d have a nap and chill. Things seemed to be going fine, but then the city I live in started burning dead trees. Right near my house. The combination of the throat and the smoke knocked me out. My nasal cavities are stuffed and yesterday I didn’t get out of bed until 4:00pm.

So I took a sick day yesterday. I filled my bed with manga and my tablet and promptly passed out for a few hours.

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Have I read all of these before? Of course I have. That’s the joy about owning something. You can keep reading it.

Folks at my Day Job were pretty okay with me taking the day. I always feel really bad and have this urge to apologize profusely. But they won’t hear of it.

In other good news, I heard back from Memorial University so I know where to send my transcripts! I can get that organized today. Hopefully I can take at least one class come the Fall term. That would be awesome!

I hope your Thursday is going well! What are some signs you’ve discovered of your ‘aging’?

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My Head is Pounding

I know a lot of people who suffer from migraines. I don’t know that I’ve ever had massive migraines per se, but today I definitely have a bastard of a headache. I didn’t even drink last night or something!

Coupled with that is this condition that’s plagued me since I was 18. It only got ‘diagnosed’ when I was in my early twenties. The muscles in my ribs are too close together, so during times of stress, lack of sleep, or just because, they will spasm violently in what I imagine feels like being stabbed repeatedly. Today is one of those days. The knock-off Advil I’ve taken has dulled it, but not removed it. Generally on days like today I curl up in my bed and don’t move.

The spasms don’t happen as often as they used to, but they still happen. It’s been a while since it was this bad though. Normally I can work through it. I’m writing about it today so that I can stop thinking about it. If I explain it enough I can ignore it and function throughout my work day.

On another note, I’ve been using Google Docs for TAK,. Sometimes there feels to be a bit of a delay, but it’s actually pretty good. The problem is trying to write it only during lunch periods at work and not throughout the day. It’s been a bit slow at the Day Job so I don’t want to fall into a bad habit of working on TAK when I should be doing other things. You know how it is: you get a really good scene in your head and you can’t do anything else until you write that sucker down. That level of distraction isn’t good for my work ethic hahaha.

It’s been quite warm here in Canada. Even where I live, in Manitoba, it’s been warm. Aside from the territories and Newfoundland and Labrador, I’m certain Manitoba is the coldest province. It’s flat. It’s windy. The windchill is a bastard. I’ve lived in Alberta, which is pretty cold but Manitoba takes the cake. I even live in the south of Manitoba! So damn flat.

Because of this, the weather is kind of a jerk. We had temperatures of 17°C on Sunday. Now it’s -2°C and there are threats of snow. That’s how you know it’s warm here. When it snows.

I just want to crawl back in my bed, assume the fetal position and not move. Maybe sleep. Maybe read. But most of all, pretend that adulting doesn’t exist.

For now, I will give myself an adulting participation ribbon and be on with my day!

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Both of these are applicable today

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Putting Grumpy Cat to Shame

I am grumpy today.

I’m not even 100% certain as to why I’m grumpy today, but I am.

I forgot my book at home which means I have nothing to read during my lunch break. Which makes me irritated because I have grown accustomed to giving my eyes a break from a screen and reading a book in print, in my hands. My options now are to read something on my phone. Maybe nap. Although I know that napping is not realistic. I get even more irritated if I nap.

We’re still waiting on the payout from my husbands previous job. It’s been 4 months. I am getting to the end of my rope, both emotionally and psychologically. I’m tired. I’m stressed. I can’t do the things I want to do. We all know that money runs the world.

All this stress is sapping my creative juices and I can’t even write a short about Edessa like I wanted to. I was going to write about her experience leaving her home and finding Brexton and Aldric. I can get that far in my thoughts, but I can’t get any farther. I can’t get the ideas going when I’m grumpy which in turn is making me even more grumpy.

I’ve got a plain scratch pad in my office I haven’t touched. Perhaps I will take that to lunch and see if I can get anything moving. I won’t know until I try!

How is everyone doing today? The weather has gotten nicer. It’s -15°C today. Only feels like -22°C with the windchill. The last few days it has been feeling like -35°C or so with the wind. A friend posted an article how in Toronto they received 10cm of snow and the kids are bitching that they didn’t get a snow day. The responses from the school board to the tweets is absolutely hilarious.

But yeah. It’s freakin’ cold here and the kids still go to school. Depending on the temperature they may be relegated to inside recess, but they still go. Buses still run. If it’s really cold the buses won’t run outside of town so that means a day home for those kids, or that their parents will be bringing them in for school. I can’t think of a day when school was cancelled in the almost 3 years I’ve lived here and it’s been even colder than what I stated above.

Any way, hopefully I’ll get happier before the day is done.

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