Growing Up is Hard To Do

Last night my eldest had a touch of the night terrors. He woke up crying and saying that his ear hurt. At first, we weren’t sure he was actually awake. He was just lying in his bed and crying and saying ‘ow’. After a few minutes my husband was able to coax him awake and we cuddled him for a bit. His ear was really hurting him but I don’t think he has an infection. It didn’t start hurting until he was asleep and he was fine this morning. I’m going to keep an eye on it but it was still pretty awful for the poor kid.

My husband mentioned that all he wants to do is protect our little guys from everything. How hard it is to watch them in such pain when you can’t do anything about it. It’s so true. When he was crying and saying it hurt all I wanted was to take that pain away. We gave him some child advil and he had me kiss his ear (Because Mum kisses are super powerful you know) and he went back to sleep. Didn’t make another sound.

Most parents want to protect their children forever. I am no different. I wish I could make everything in their lives easier for them; I don’t want them to have to endure any sadness or hardship.

However, I also know that it is by enduring these things that we grow. Of course I will protect them as much as I can. But I will also give them the tools to handle these situations on their own. They’re young right now so they require the assistance. I don’t want my kids to be in their 20’s or 30’s and not know how to handle themselves. I want them to be successful and confident. I want them to be strong. And it’s not just because I have boys. If I had had a daughter or daughters it would be the same.

As you well know, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of internal evaluation. I am going to start employing a time at night, after the kids are in bed, for 5 to 10 minutes at first where I can be alone and do some meditation. My counsellor mentioned it before as a way to wind down from the day and as a way to reflect. I think that not only will it do wonders for my writing, it will also do wonders for my soul.

On that note, I will leave you with a lovely quote from Buddha.


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