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A Day in the Life

It’s been one of those days where I can’t wait for it to be over, and yet I feel like there isn’t enough time left in the day.

Some news, since I’ve been absent, is that I have a second job! This is on top of the free-lance writing I do, which has gotten me another client. I also work in a casual capacity as a Crisis Counsellor at my local women’s shelter. It’s been a learning experience, that’s for sure, but I’ve been able to use past experience when working with our clients.

Between the, four, jobs I have I am also starting two classes this term. These are prerequisite courses for the Masters in Education in Counselling Psychology that I hope to get into when I’m done. I have 5 courses in total so after these 2 I’ll have 3 left. It doesn’t look like I have any exams, yet, so that makes me happy.

The husband is starting his final year of college this fall as well. Our eldest is going to be in grade 1 and our youngest will be 3. It’s a bit crazy at my place right now.

Because it’s crazy, and I honestly have no other excuse, I haven’t touched TAK in months. When I get home from one of my jobs all I want to do is lay on the couch and veg. I don’t want to sit at a desk or with my tablet on my lap and attempt to flesh out more of TAK. It’s a horrible feeling; knowing that there’s this story inside that I can’t do anything about.

Also, not that you can tell, but I’m having a massive issue typing today. I have hit the backspace key so many times! What the hell! I’ve trimmed my nails so that’s not the issue. But honestly, it’s getting irritating.

Things are going well, otherwise. I took my eldest to see the Weird Al concert when it came through my province this summer. My husband took a few days off work and we made a family trip out of it. We went to a children’s museum and the zoo. Went to the park. My in-laws came out on the second day and we all went to the zoo together. It was fun! My eldest had HUGE attitude issues, though. But we’re also working on that.

He’s all registered for 2 programs at the local YMCA that will hopefully help with all the energy he’s got. He’s exhausting. But cute. I think I’ll keep him.

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It's Not Me, It's You

Bye

I am the worst when it comes to self care. I forget about looking after my own mental health more often than not. There’s no good reason for it, other than to say that it wasn’t something I grew up witnessing. Being the eldest in a single parent household I watched my mother work herself to the bone, sometimes doing two jobs at once. In my final year of high school I worked three jobs and went to school full time. I’m even currently looking at getting a part time job so that my husband doesn’t have to work while he’s in his final year of his program.

I know I need to do better. The house can look after itself for the ten minutes it would take for me to do some lead meditation or just read a book by myself.

I downloaded the Headspace app and am encouraging a friend to do it as well. While I can’t afford to subscribe, we can still support each other and inspire each other to do the free sessions.

In the meantime, I recently deleted my Facebook account.

I’ve been on Facebook since it came out; way back when it was supposed to be used as a tool to find out who was in your classes so that you can make friends.

Why did I make this change?

I had been finding that Facebook was increasing my anxiety. I had 40 friends and I was cutting back all the time. I just found that I was obsessively checking it, borderline stalking people and then getting upset over things I was seeing.

And getting jealous.

For no reason.

As well, Facebook was just another way for people to contact me, even when I didn’t want them to. Despite having a public blog and writing on it daily there are times when I want to be able to disconnect from all the crap and just chill on my own. I was tired of the pieces of information that were not essential to my life.

While I have faced harassment through this blog I found that even more harassment was happening through my author page on Facebook. People were getting contacted and being told incorrect information in order to slander my reputation.

So now it’s done.

I’ve still got Twitter and I have this site. I still have a work-related email address that I can filter easily.

Honestly, I feel so much better now that I’ve shut Facebook down. The compulsion to sign in and look at things that don’t matter is basically gone. I sent a message to the people who matter and gave them an email address if they wanted to keep in touch. The people I didn’t message were because I already have ways to connect with them outside of Facebook.

It’s a pretty sweet feeling of release and I’ve spent a whole weekend not even worrying about it.

Yeah. This feels good!

Bye FB

 

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Am I Crazy? Maybe…

Am I Crazy? Maybe…

Keeping on with the happiness train I thought I’d talk about some good things that have happened recently.

The Husband landed a summer job that lets him work regular full time hours, Monday to Friday, at almost the same pay I’m getting! This is a huge weight off our shoulders. We can squirrel away money into our savings for when he goes back to full time school in the Fall and for other projects.

Like my next tattoo!

I go for my tattoo consultation on the 29th of June. Super excited for it! It’s just to talk about the idea and placement and such. I’ll also be putting down a deposit and making the appointment for the actual tattoo to happen.

Another great thing is I decided The Husband isn’t allowed to work when he’s in school this next year. Why is that good news, you ask? Because he’s been out of the school-game for so long it was really hard for him to be a student and work part time.

So I’m going to.

I’ve already applied to two jobs and I’m about to submit my application for a third. These are on-call, casual jobs (mostly) that would keep me employed and bring in some extra money without him having to worry about it.

This does mean that I’ll have less time to write TAK but, to be honest, I haven’t touched it in like a month anyway. Things were pretty crazy at my Day Job but it’s toning down again.

Another awesome thing is I submitted my registration request for 2 courses I need to take for the Masters program I want to get into! Once processed, this will cover 2/5 courses I need to take to be eligible for the Masters in Education in Counselling Psychology. That makes me pretty damn happy.

You might be saying: Now Sarah, taking two courses in the Fall, working three jobs (I have a side freelancing job which is good, but unreliable) and being a parent all at the same time? Are you crazy?

The simple answer?

crazy life

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Kids These Days

So while I date myself with a title like that, kids these days are good too. This isn’t a post complaining about kids.

I trial-ran a babysitter on Sunday. I had an exercise class I like to attend and my husband was at his part-time job. So, I thought, this is as good a time as any. The girl is 16 and is the daughter of my dayhome lady. So she knows both my boys and is quite experienced with children. It was only for 2 hours so what could happen, right?

Nothing bad happened at all! The downsides to this girl are simply the fact that she doesn’t drive yet. I had to pick  her up and drop her off which meant packing the kids in the car for a 5 minute drive. The only other downside was the cost. I told  her I needed her from 10am until 12pm. The class is generally 10:30-11:30 but time for her to settle, see where everything is, for me to go and come back without rushing. The cost: $20. I feel like when I was a kid I would have been paid $5-$10 for that time frame.

It was great though, to be able to get out and not worry about the kids. But it’s expensive. My client hasn’t paid me for 2 weeks worth of work, which is a risk every freelancer takes, so I’m short on any type of extra funds. it just brought into light how my husband and I don’t hire a babysitter and go out because we simply can’t afford it right now.

I do have a friend who has offered to watch my boys for me. She has an almost 3 year old herself and I worked with her. I do like her, but I feel guilty when people offer. I will take her up on it though. I have told her when she buys her house (she’s looking right now) that I will help her paint and any other DIY stuff she wants to do. My husband and I DIYed our kitchen so I have some experience. She has family to watch her son if she needs it so she didn’t need that kind of trade-off.

The important fact is that we trialed a babysitter and I liked her. I also have my back-up daycare girl to talk to but she is currently a full-time student and has a son. I don’t want to take her away from her little boy at all so I’ve asked her to keep an ear out for anyone she knows who does babysitting that she would recommend. She’s taking the Early Childhood Education program at the local college so her classmates should have proper skills. Should.

The reality is that we need to have this service. We need to figure out our budget and where we’d possibly get the money from. I do have to leave town for work more frequently than I expected and it’s the reality that my husband works part time. He will be working evenings and weekends. We can’t avoid that.

At least this is a step in the right direction!

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Keep on Keepin' On

Phew! Between work, the kids, the house and freelancing, I’m starting to get a bit tired.

Things are going well for the moment. I’ve found relatively steady freelancing work (that’s not a typo) which is helping out. So far brings me in close to $100 a week. That’ll be fun come tax-time, but it’s not so bad. Hopefully I know how to claim it properly.

Haven’t done much work on TAK in a while. Finished the read through and every now and then something pops up in my brain so I write it down in a book I started taking everywhere. I’ve mapped out a good deal of the ending and middle now, which is awesome! I was getting so stuck on where I should be going next that I was missing a lot of awesome character-development points.

I’d still like to get Black & Red into a hard copy. I know I can do that through Amazon and CreateSpace but I haven’t had time to deal with the upload of the file etc. My laptop has bit the dust, hard. I can’t even use it unless I use an external keyboard which is painful. I might look into a cheapy little thing. I’d like an ultrabook or Surface, I think. But no money for that right now so it’s just a dream.

Been a bit sick lately; probably from stress, work, kids, weather-change etc. The husband and I are going to try and squirrel away some money to hire a babysitter for a couple hours or so. We haven’t had any ‘us’ time and we’re getting pretty worn out because of it. We don’t do much, but we’ll probably go for like an afternoon to troll the mall and eat at the food court. Maybe watch a movie. Babysitters cost money so we might not be able to do it until November and his work schedule changes a lot since he works part time so hopefully we can squeeze a date in before it gets too cold out.

It’s almost my birthday! The video game I want comes out after the actual day but I hope I get to get it. My husband gave me my present already since my birthday falls on a weekday this year.

One of these days I’ll be able to afford my cottage in the mountains of Jasper where I’ll sit writing all day and having a bonfire outside. If only things didn’t cost money! We do have a fire pit in our backyard but the previous owners were dicks so it probably isn’t up to code. Maybe we can fix it up for next year.

Anyway, time to work the Day Job. Lunch break is over!

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Bringing Writing to Work

I was asked to write a blog-style piece for my job the other day. Part of what my Day Job is involves providing customer service via online chat, e-mail or telephone to users of one of our websites. We have a section where we wanted to write more blog-style posts to help connect with our users and offer them support and tips with their educational goals.

So I wrote a piece and I am now nervous as hell to let my co-workers read it. I get the honour of working with very talented people and I am just deathly afraid that my post won’t be good enough. I don’t take criticism well sometimes, especially with writing and especially when I can put faces to the critics. I know I’ll get over it but I’m still nervous nonetheless at this point in time.

I’ve been slyly working on TAK during my lunch breaks. Like I mentioned before I had the mapping for the novel roughly written out. I think I’ll spend some time today to make that more solid. I’m not used to mapping as I usually just write and see where it goes. Not that that’s a bad thing, but mapping isn’t a bad thing either. It helps me flesh some stuff out and notice any potential inconsistencies.

I’ve gotten some more freelance work which makes me happy. I also applied for an unpaid internship with an anime website I frequent regularly.

It’s actual lunchtime now, so I’m going to go get started on that mapping. I have a new pen for the job and everything!

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Calling All Allies

Have you ever felt like no matter what you do something is bound to go wrong? Maybe I’m just tired (that’s probably it) but I am feeling so goddamn defeated lately.

We need to put about $5000 worth of work into our house just so that we can sleep in our bedroom again. My husband is getting ready to go back to school. If I take my freelancing jobs into consideration I am working one full time job and three part time jobs right now. I am feeling so stretched that it’s starting to get to me.

Thankfully my husband is a great person and isn’t taking the fact that I’m working so hard to put him through school for granted.

But today, I feel like I’m over the edge.

I backed into the convertible car of the Executive Director at my full time job. Did I mention he’s the former Chief of Police in my town? He was very nice about the whole thing and insurance will sort it out but it’s just one of those things that really didn’t need to happen right now. Like I am so over the fact that ONE. MORE. THING. has just gone wrong and we’ll have to pay for something when we’re trying to scrimp and save.

I do kickboxing twice a week which is helping me keep a level head lately. But I haven’t played a video game in over a month. I have written anything worth reading in over 5 months. I feel like crying because I’m so tired and feeling so guilty right now about the car.

I just want SOMETHING to go right. Anything. I want my kids to stop screaming and freaking out every ten seconds. I want to be able to afford or even FIND a babysitter so my husband and I can go on a date. But then a date costs money so I talk myself out of the idea.

I miss my friends. I miss my PanTron and my Wifey. Because my emotional mind is in control I`m FAR more whiny than I need to be right now. I know I`m just being a pest but if I can`t vent into the virtual world I am going to freaking explode.

I`m hoping a payment for one of my freelancing jobs comes in soon so I can feel a bit better about my money situation.

Yeesh.

Who`s got a hammer? Wanna practice nailing into my coffin?

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To Everything Turn, Turn, Turn

I’ve been undergoing some changes lately. This summer I’ve lost my extra source of income as an ESL teacher at the local college in my town.

But I’ve found something interesting out of that.

After reading a post on LinkedIn I read about some Freelancing websites that seemed legitimate and safe. I started doing some research and I ended up joining elance.com.

At first I was a bit nervous applying for jobs. I looked to see which employers had a good reputation and which ones had confirmation of payment. I didn’t want to get stuck doing so much work and putting a lot of effort into something and then not get paid for it.

I am happy to report that I have completed 4 jobs for one employer quite successfully and they are planning to use my again. I also won a job creating articles based off of key words provided by the client and another one which is basically the same thing. I’ve also applied for a job I really want to get which would almost replace the income from teaching! It would be very nice to be able to do these things in the comfort of my home.

I have been noticing that my children are missing me and are acting out as such. I need to spend more time with them, but supporting them is also important. As my husband gets ready to change from his full-time job he’s had for about 8 years and head to College our income is going to drop considerably. We’re trying to pay off as much debt as we can before he stops work and he has been looking for jobs.

Sometimes I have to find the positive and I have been working really hard at that. I’m doing my best to be understanding and supportive.

So things are looking up!

My book, on the other hand, is going to start calling me and threatening me if I don’t pay attention to it. I haven’t touched it in sooooo long! I am hoping the spare/extra time I should get when classes end on the 28th will help with this.

Then I’ll need to full on manage my time better! I can do!

Right…?

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