Self-Inflicted Madness

Wow. This weekend was a gong-show. Not familiar with that term? Apparently it’s an Alberta, Canada thing and it means INSANE.

I had half of Thursday, Friday and Yesterday off work. I came back this morning and there were 28 e-mails, many of them duplicates, a meeting request and craziness waiting for me.

This Saturday my husband was taken away to help with the parts of Alberta that were flooded. They then decided to give him back to us yesterday. I understand people are in need right now, but why bother taking people when you don’t really need them? That’s wasteful in my opinion.

So because of this last-minute craziness, we had to cancel our trip to Jasper with my in-laws which made me very sad as it will probably be the last time in a long time that I’ll be able to go to the mountains. My husband also missed our ultrasound appointment to see the little Hatchling which kind of upset me because I booked this thing a month prior and he was supposed to have the day off. When they decided to call him in, the appointment was set to happen in an hour from then. Ugh. Like they couldn’t wait. But, oh well. Such is the life of military families.

When he told me he was going to come home yesterday, I told him I would believe him once he was actually on the bus and headed back to our city. I trust nothing the military says in this regard until it actually happens because things can change in an instant. He could have been sent to the areas that were affected far heavily by the floods for all I knew. But he came home, which is good.

But because he came back at such an odd time after leaving suddenly our son was very upset this morning in the car on the way to the dayhome so Mum could go to her Day Job. Which, trust me, I would have MUCH preferred to stay home in bed. I feel like I didn’t get much of a weekend even though I spent most of it playing video games. I was just so stressed out and over burdened emotionally and mentally that it just wasn’t cool.

Such is life! I’ll get over it ūüôā Now it’s time to get on with the day!

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Reading, reading, reading

I’ve done what I like to call a “Story Swap” with a couple people from the Twitter and WordPress who are writers as well and I just started reading the books. I’ve got 4 to get through and I’ve promised to write reviews for these people as well.

I think it’s only fair and they’re helping me while I help them. Nothing wrong with that at all!

I didn’t start anything this weekend though because I wanted to play my video game, Tales of Graces f (I strongly believe the ‘f’ stands for ‘Foreign’ since it’s English Dub :P) and I got really involved in that game this weekend. I really like the¬†Tales series and I am really looking forward to the next one which is due out in August as it was supposed to come out in JANUARY of this year but got pushed back.

The first book on my plate is: A Seer Ended by Michael Hale. You can find his work at:

I just loaded it up on my tablet but it’s sitting at 400 and something pages. That actually makes me really excited because that means it’s probably really involved! I like stories like that. He’s got a profile over at GoodReads too so you should check him out. I’ll touch base on the other books when I get to them.

Happy Monday! I’m¬†alllllllllllllllmost done my Day Job for at least a year. I can’t wait!

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A Post-Mother's Day….post

Yesterday was Mother’s Day and being a mother, I enjoyed it to the fullest!

My day started out with two hours of PEACE AND QUIET. Do you have any idea what kind of rare commodity that is when you have an ‘energetic’ 3 year-old, a 3 year-old dog and a husband? It’s better than platinum.

So my loving husband took the crazy child and the crazy dog and went out first thing in the morning to the dog park. This meant there was only myself and the Hatchling I’m currently gestating in the house. I wasn’t alone, but it was certainly quiet.

So what did I do with those two glorious hours?


Yeah. That’s right. That’s how we do in my house. I also got¬†The Secret World of Arrietty. It’s one of the Studio Ghibli movies that I HAVE to watch with original Japanese audio and English subtitles. The only movies I can watch with English dub are:¬†Howl’s Moving Castle, Castle in the Sky and¬†Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind. The voice actors that were chosen for those movies were very well done. I mean, COME ON! Patrick Stewart!!! YES!

Anyway, back to my video game of awesomeness: I received¬†Tales of Graces f¬† as my gift. I’ve already¬†annihilated¬†Tales of Vesperia and I was very happy with that game. I HATED the English voice actors though and in the newest installment to the Tales¬†I’m not overly keen on them again, but I’ll manage. I’ve heard a rumour that the up-and-coming¬†Tales of Xillia is supposed to have the original Japanese audio track. I will be super stoked if that’s true and it’ll make the delay in release that much better. The thing was supposed to drop in January of 2013 and now it’s been pushed back to AUGUST 2013.

All this enjoyment of video games has seriously prevented me from formatting. I need to get my ass in gear before I end up delaying my publishing date AGAIN and kicking myself in the ass repeatedly.

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Oh Canada….

You never let me down.

In the city I currently live in, I’ve read a news article that the police who walk the beat downtown are going to be doing so…..on Segways.

Right. Because with cops on Segways we’ll be able to take them even more seriously.

Aside from that being relatively hilarious there isn’t much else going on. This weekend will be the start of formatting! Since I can’t do it on my tablet properly I’ve been designating all the formatting for home time, but I got a video game for Mother’s Day so that’s been eating up valuable formatting time ūüėõ

The plan is to format at least 1/3 of the piece by the end of this weekend. My husband leaves for work again on the 15th so that will give me more lonely time at home to format and nit-pick and get everything ready to the PUBLISHING that will be taking place THIS MONTH.

I’m still terrified. Yup. Terrified.

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Editing HELL

So I took a bit of a break from editing this weekend and spent my time playing video games until I was blue in the face. Video game of choice right now:¬†Tales of Vesperia. The English dub is killing me in certain spots, but that’s alright. Since I can’t get it in the original Japanese with English sub I’ll suffer away until I learn the language properly and THEN I’ll just import the games directly from Japan.

While I was playing my game and I was in the middle of a battle I heard a character yell: “Cover me while I’m casting!” which surprised me. I don’t think I’ve ever paid that much attention before and it made me wonder,¬†if it were real life and magic existed, would people really yell this?

And the answer I came to is: probably.

I mean, why not? How many times do you read in stories or see on television or in movies characters who yell to their comrades in battle to cover them while they do ‘x’ and to cover them while they do ‘y’.

I think I may implement this in my current story. There is a fight scene coming up that I am wholly unhappy with. I wrote it four years ago and didn’t touch it because I just didn’t know what to do to make it better, to make it more realistic.

Depending on what happens, because I can’t remember exactly anymore, I may throw some verbal give and take in there. Might make it more realistic.

But we’ll see. I need to make my way there first!

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So a song just came on my iPod that made me think of this topic. It’s called “Spirit Inspiration” by Nothing’s Carved in Stone. The song is the opening theme from the anime¬†Blast of Tempest and I’m not sure if the band that sings it is J-Rock or not as the entire song is in English and I haven’t had time to look them up.

I digress….

When I heard the song it made me think of where I get the inspiration for my stories from. I have touched on this before, but now I want to go more in-depth.

My inspiration definitely comes partially from video games. I learned this as I was playing¬†Tales of Vesperia this weekend. Man, I love RPG’s. I love games where you can swing a sword around and learn special attacks and use magic and you’ve got this quest to go out there in that ‘world’ and find something or someone. These quest-type games were a lot of the drive behind¬†Black and Red. There’s a world, something happens in said world, and now a group of unlucky¬†acquaintances are off to travel this world and discover the reasoning behind what happened. There is magic. There are swords. It’s awesome. Well, to ME it is.

I also get a lot of inspiration from manga, as I’ve said before. I was never that into Western comics when I was younger. That could be because I grew up relatively poor and didn’t have the money to buy comics. It could also be that since I was poor, I didn’t watch a lot of tv so I didn’t watch a lot of the cartoons that were based on the comics like Batman and Superman and the Justice League etc. I discovered these shows and comics when I was much older and my love for manga had already exploded. I read a lot of novels like those by R.L. Stine (for my age group anyway, and some Goosebumps) and I loved the horror aspect of things. That was the driving force behind a lot of my earlier stories, which I no longer have. I have the basics of them locked up in my mind, but that’s it.

Some inspiration comes from music. The beat of it, sometimes the lyrics. An amazing cross between music and anime is the movie¬†Interstella 555 which is a full length anime movie to the music of Daft Punk’s¬†Discovery album. No words. Just the music. It’s frigging epic and I highly recommend it if either one of those things is your cup of tea.

And then, the inspiration for the characters. A lot of that is again built upon the characters of anime and manga, but also built on the people I know. Not so much the physical features, but the attitudes and personalities. Usually the people I dislike get…done away with in my stories ūüôā

I’ve always used my writing as a sort of self-therapy and it helped a lot when I was younger. My darkest stories were always written during my darkest times which would be between 13 and 23. Now that things are much better in my life, I have to find a new muse.

Hopefully it’s not hiding somewhere I can’t find ūüôā


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Oh! The Tragic Hero! It's just……TRAGIC

So everyone has their own rituals or things they need to do in order to write ‘properly’ and everyone will have their own genre or aspect of writing that they are good at.

My thing is music. There needs to be music playing. I am horribly unable to cope with silence so there is usually some sort of noise going on in my house. Right now I’m sitting at my desk in my office with my headphones on as I am very early for work and no one else is here yet. It’s too quiet.

I don’t really have a specific music I¬†need to be listening to. It’s really whatever strikes my fancy. There are a few necessities that need to be on my iPod or iTunes when I am writing though. First and foremost: Stephan Moccio’s “Exposure” album. I friggin love all that piano shit. It’s just piano. It’s beautiful. To me, anyway. Hell, when I got married I walked down the aisle to the song “Zephyr” and it was wonderful. Depending on what sort of scene I’m writing, I’ll throw Mr. Moccio on the iPod or whatever and pound away at my keyboard.

Other times, I need something exciting. This can usually be met with a variety of J-Pop and J-Rock or some good old 70’s and 80’s rock. Journey is one of my more favourite ones when I’m thinking of older music. Do As Infinity or Rookiez is Punkd for my J-Pop and J-Rock. Of course, there is MUCH MUCH MORE that I listen to and that I like, but that would be an entire post of just what’s in my iTunes library, and I’m sure that would be boring as fuck to read. So, if you want to know any more, just ask me ūüôā

When I’m stuck and I just can’t seem to make my story move anywhere, I’ll take a break and just let my iPod go through whatever the hell it wants or I’ll read some manga or watch an anime. If I’m writing a battle scene, I try to read or watch something in a completely different area, like a comedy or romance. On the flip side, if I’m stuck developing romantic relationships I won’t watch my Shojo anime or read my Shojo manga. It’s usually Shonen (manga and anime geared to boys so there’s lots of fighting and robots and stuff) that I turn to or something in the mature stream. It’s a ¬†nice way to clear my head with something I love and won’t overly influence the current thing I’m fighting. *pow!*

Another way to clear my mind is to play a video game. Right now, my games of choice are Borderlands 2, Resonance of Fate, Tales of Vesperia or watching my husband play Ni No Kuni: Wrath of the White Witch on PS3. If I REALLY want to play on PS3 myself, I pull out the God of War series and let Kratos beat the living snot out of EVERYTHING in his path. It’s awesome.

As for the things I know that I usually write on: my heroes/heroines are usually of the ‘tragic’ persuasion. So these people have had¬†such a hard life¬†or there’s just something about them that makes everyone around them uneasy and junk. I can’t write fluffy feel-good stories. There is blood. There is murder and killing. There is agony and heartbreak. As I stated before, my stories are not for children and they are probably not to be read by teeny-boppers. Now I understand that just because you’re 14 doesn’t mean you won’t be old enough or mature enough to understand and appreciate the stories I write. I grew up reading Stephen King and John Saul when I was 13+, so I’m with ya there. I’m just saying if you’re looking for something like “Twilight” or “Harry Potter” you might want to look elsewhere.

Will this turn people off my writing? Well, yeah. Probably. But I don’t expect everyone in existence to absolutely¬†love everything I write. I don’t love everything I read, after all.

A lot of the time when I write, I envision what my story would look like it if were an anime or a manga. *heh* Since those are my two loves and that entire culture influences what and how I write sometimes, it’s inevitable. If you’ve never read a manga or watched an anime doesn’t mean ¬†you won’t get my stories.

They are fantasy after all. There’s magic, and swords, sometimes guns and fantastical creatures. If you appreciate the basics of fantasy and love fantasy stories for that reason, you may very well enjoy what I write.

I’m currently waiting for Amazon to get back to me about that Direct to Kindle Publishing issue I previously had. Yeah, I’m still waiting. I contacted them again last night so hopefully I will hear something by the end of this week. I really want to start sharing the details of my stories or posting a chapter or two to gauge some reactions. Even if I get a bunch of people hating on my work, I’m still going to go forward with publishing. If there is constructive criticism, I’ll listen to it and see what I can do before finalizing my draft and submitting it for publishing. But I’m not about to stop or change a whole lot just because one or two people don’t like it. Why? Because I said so. Because this is MY work and if I don’t want to do anything different, I won’t.

I’m sure you guys won’t be assholes though, right? Don’t be assholes. Assholes don’t usually have friends ūüėõ

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